It is a blood bath.
CO-workers who have done more then their part have been told that they are no longer needed.
Those who held the care of others in the highest regard or not being shown any care as they are being pushed out the door.
Management is tight lipped, no one is letting anyone know what is going on until it is done, everyone is worried, everyone is scared, everyone is in shock.
Heads are rolling around everywhere. Their jobs have been cut and needed people and positions are gone at the detriment to the people who need our support, who are already suffering.
We are stepping back into dark times when no support for the patients is the norm.
I went for a walk after work the other night. Clearing my head, trying to figure out how to stay in my power and heart when I am so angry and upset.
I walked to the rushing water of South River and sat on the new bench the city had provided for my meditative pondering.
I closed my eyes and did an active meditation that I do often to clear my mind and allow my subconsciousness to open and share with me.
While in this aware state of dreaming, I was shown a multi-headed serpent. Many heads that tried to attack me, so I cut one of its heads off. The head rolled to the ground and a new head grew where the severed head once was. I imagined myself cutting many heads off and many grew back, they all grew back.
It was the ancient Greek story of Hydra. The serpent with many heads that if one was cut off others would grow back.
I thought that this was a message from my deep inner self of the hopelessness of the cuts and the work I wanted to commit my life to. Maybe cuts and depleted budgets where the norm and I had to accept it as management would always be back at it....
Then I had another insight.
What if Hydra was a symbol of the front line workers?
What if one job was lost, another popped up?
What if we are resilient beyond anyone's imagination?
In times past of institutions and dungeons, when almost no resources and staffing where given to support workers, we fought for more and better for the people we supported.
In times of challenge and stress we persevere. We find ways to keep growing, until management realizes they can not chop our heads of and start to listen and work with us.
Hydra, the warrior of perseverance and determination.
I stay in my heart, in a place of love as I see so many heads being cut from the Hydra I am a part of. I know heads will grow back and I know those being cut will keep fighting, keep loving, keep supporting.
As the cuts come down the most important thing I can think of doing is thanking everyone who I have been blessed with working with and the many who have helped and supported me.
I will continue to fight for the rights of the people we are supporting.
I will continue to show resilience and determination, while staying heart centered and in light.
I will continue until I am chopped off...
then I will grow back somewhere else and continue the same work, only this time I will be stronger because of the people I have worked with.